So I'm sitting here, watching Prince Caspian and it made me think of a fair few things. Like how things have changed so much during this past year. In the past year I've done so much, and learn't a lot about myself. I guess this time last year I saw Prince Caspian for the first time, and seeing it again now makes me think about how so much has changed.
I've started reading a broader range of books. Classics mainly, and I got into the Percy Jackson series as well, I've gotten back into the fantasy range of books, as well as broadened my horizons with older English/Classic books. One year ago I don't think I would even dream about reading about a prime man falling in love with a thirteen year old girl and describing her in such.. vivid terms. In a way, it's helped me appreciate the English language more.
Picture above: LOLITA- Vladimir Nabokov (Penguin Books)
One year ago I spent so much of my time worrying about what other people thought of me; worrying about how they saw me, what they would think of me.. I really don't see the point in trying to please other people when you don't and can't appreciate yourself.
And I can't even stress this enough, everybody needs to be themselves theres no point in acting like mainstream people, because in the end we'll all just be clones of society's preferred character, not who we are, and we're all human, we all have different characteristics, don't be afraid to do something just because you might get hate, you just have to know that people's hate is stemmed from their jealously of your confidence in doing something, and your passion for doing it. Their hate is generated from their failures and you shouldn't be accounted for that. Haters should learn to move on from their mistakes which is causing them to hate, and learn to walk the path ahead of them in a more positive light and not projectile copious amounts of dark energy to confident people.
One year ago I was thinking of completely dropping Japanese. After choosing it I really regretted it. I was stressing so much about the work that I'd have to do and learning a new language isn't exactly easy for anybody. So, my brain exploded into 10,000 parts every time I thought of it. But, I guess I decided to stick with it, and Japanese, I've really learnt to appreciate it. So I guess not dropping it was one of the best decisions I've ever made.
I guess one year ago I was a completely different person. I never thought I'd get remotely interested in photography or even get my own domain on the internet, never did I think that I would be the first suggestion on Google when you typed in "Eugene and" and hell to the never did I ever think I'd escape the web of society's preferred citizen.
I guess, everything that's happened these past twelve months happened for the better and I've learnt so much. Life is shaping up to be better than it was twelve months ago, I'm happier, I feel more free and I'm even getting clearer skin because I'm not bothering about worrying. So readers, live your life, don't be afraid, and keep moving forward and forget all the negatives in the past.